Am I supposed to start to write diary?? I found out there is a lot of things that I can really write it down and then in the future I can view back as a memory... And this is a way to express myself without telling anyone too... Ok here goes... :)
Yesterday I heard a very shocking news... It's about Max... I never thought about this... Joie told me that Max have sex with Christy before and have blowjob with Christy and Nicola... lol... It's quite unbelievable... I never thought that Max is this kind of person... after fuck people still bitch around saying their bad words... But all these I heard from Joie only... And I promised Max to tutor him Maths... I need to be objective on him... Bryan... God let you know these to let you influence him... You must try to be the light, the salt... Try to help him in the other way... Help myself too...
Yesterday my church friends made a farewell party to Chai Fong... She is going to leave Hobart and start a new life... But the most sad thing is... I'm not invited to go to the party. When I saw the pictures on FB my heart was liked sliced by thousands of knives. This is not the first time. At first I don't know Mei Xing they all are not Christian, but I knew this truth two days ago. Is liked another arrow pierced though my heart. Even non-Christian you guys can like have a lot of activity involving them. I did not hate them, but envy. I, as a Christian, known them slightly longer then u guys, but they have a lot of activities didn't ask me to join. Maybe I'm still under 18? Now I'm trying to convince myself, as in just wait for another year. Everything will turns out better. That's what I hope.
My Father Lord, please guide me to the right path. I'm in the mist right now. Father God you know what I need, and you know what suits me the best. Please Father God, let me have no prejudice on Max, and God please, use my hand as Your hand to heal him. Father Lord, I need your guidance right now. I'm stuck in the relationship between my church members. Please let me know what is the right way. Let me know what am I supposed to do, or learn. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!
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